What a day its been, from being in a black hole and hitting that wall and having self doubts, I have pulled through and am back on the treadmill so to speak, however I have to say, I did take the day off and did not do any training but rather focused on my emotional well being..... I did my normal motherly duties, household chores, attended to University emails and responded to helping fellow students, however took a step into the wild side and went to watch a movie with my son; #Frozen, 'twas a great and wonderful distraction.
The feeling sorry for myself has now subsided, together with the pain and discomfort from my recent vaccinations.
What I did do was go deeper into the wild side and shared a big bowl of 'chips' with lashing of salt and vinegar bought from my local fish and chip shop not only that, I also had a bar of chocolate and a slice of dark chocolate cherry forest gateau cake. Do I feel great? ...... No is the honest answer, as I feel bloated and yukky, Food is so important, however it was great to just let go and not be so strict myself, having a food blow out every 6 months is not that bad, as long as one can cope with the after effects......
This evening focused on a fundraising drive and sent out a bulk text message to my entire phone book. I was quite rightly reminded today that if I don't ask I wont get. One of my weaknesses on a personal level is asking for help and or asking for favours, put me in a professional situation and I don't have an issue at all, however armed with my professional motto, I prompted my friends and am glad to say am extremely humbled with their responses. Tonight alone I have managed to raise a further £100. What can one say, but express sincere and humbling gratitude; what with the recession and our economic stance, my friends have been simply wonderful. Their response has given me a kick up my imperfectly perfect derriere and has wiped away this overhanging glumness.
As with any challenge and or trauma, one has to go through the feeling or emotion, don't conceal it or hide it, as it will just resurface further down the line but just more severely; so with a belly full of chocolate and fries (chips) and a body that's feeling less sore, I am back on track.
My next posting will detail the FEARS as requested by my friends.
With Positivity and #blisterfree wishes
Jani
#UltraMarathonVirgin
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