First of all I do hope you are all well - I have made a few adjustments to my life, sleeping more for a start. As they say small steps........long may it last I say.
Its been a tough few weeks since I last blogged, trying to balance looking after my son who has had several neuro moments, university assignments, PR work for my marathon, fundraising, training, university, trying to formulate a packing strategy photos to follow below, and trying to support my son and being a manager of life. Crying helps, that's probably why I am so so tired.
Herewith the latest on my emotional status, training, food, nerves BONES, muscles, boy and mind. With less than two weeks, well actually 11 days to go the pressure is on, now is the time to relax and to get good sleep, eat well and use mind focus strategies.
Apologies for being delayed here, however being a single parent to a child with neuro disabilities has its challenges and for me to go away I have to implement and plan ahead weeks and months in advance, not too mention my university work load and university responsibilities, being a student rep brings its challenges and supporting students is one other string to my bow. Now that I am up to date with son, home, training, work load and university, I can give this blog my full attention. I have to force myself now to focus and relax, a rested mind and body will yield great results.
Am I feeling nervous people are asking me........ YES, YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES , snakes, scorpions and those funny beings with 8 legs.......... that is what I am most anxious about.....doubt I could ever do "I am a celebrity get me out of here!" and of course not being able to read my GPS - I am not very good at maps and or even using my SAT NAV i my car... and that's it. The rest will happen as it happens, even if I crawl throw the last stages, I AM AND I WILL DO IT.
I want to give thanks to a wonderful man I have come to know, who yesterday said some amazing things to me, "Janet, he said, you are going to do this, you are one of an elite few, how many people an say they have trained and are ready to run across the desert? - You are a true inspiration".... I walked away feeling like I was someone and that I am not just a mom, not just a fundraiser, not just a girl who has come through life, but a woman ready for a one of her greatest challengers.
Thanks David - you are truly a wonderful man and you will make it, when you are ready you will get to where you need and want to be.
As the brains go into over drive and bones feel like they are pulling away from the my muscles, I sit and type my thoughts of what my journey has been like.
Nothing is ever impossible, and as I say again, "it always seems impossible, until its done - Nelson Mandela".
I have literally just come back from my rather lovely South African doctor and also my wonderful specialist physiotherapist - who have manipulated my right shoulder and have injected me with cortisone to help with the pain, and although I do not support medication and or drugs, I have to save that for the first time in 8 months I am pain free. I want to celebrate with joy and a glass of bubbles, but I will save that for my return on the 29th March.
I also want to give thanks to Brainwave - Phil Edge CEO, Gerry Gould PR Manager for their help in supporting me with PR and fundraising, as well Harris and Hoole for supplying me with chocolate cake not to mention that its at least 600Ckal a slice.
But thanks goes to a BOY who has been supportive to all my moods, stressors and days where tears stream non stop a boy who has given meaning to my life. A boy that everyone wrote off except for my determined and rock hard heart and soul, without Basti and his understanding, I could never have achieved what have thus far. He may not know or understand what I a doing and why I am doing it, however one day when I am gone, he will know his Mommy did something she always wanted to do and for GREAT CAUSES.
I will be back tonight to give you a decent blog on KIT, FOOD, PACKING and MENTAL PREPARATION.
With love and #blisterfreewishes
Jani
#UltraMarathonVirgin
